Broken Hearts Mending

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Just over three months ago, our world changed. We can see good things that have come from this change. and some great things, even. But there is still anger and questions and sometimes pools of tears. This picture was of a stepping stone I bought when I first started at my work. It sat in front of our house in D-town forever, and moved with us to Flint. Last winter, it broke in two, but neither of us had the heart to toss it. I asked Carl why he moved the broken stone with us back to D-town, and he said, “Because it seemed so fitting.”

Fitting indeed.

And yet there’s hope. A job for Carl? Maybe, Restoration? Perhaps.

Throughout all this, we’d be nothing without our hope in Jesus Christ. This road has not been easy. Being persecuted for some crazy accusation that everyone KNOWS is false, and having to pay the price over and over and over… well it’s getting on our nerves. But God keeps laying this on my heart:

Romans 5

New International Version (NIV)

Peace and Hope

5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

6 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. 7 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. 8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!10 For if, while we were God’s enemies,we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

Hope does not disappoint! I’m on pins and needles waiting (!) just WAITING for the day when Carl comes home to tell me he’s found a shiny, new job. And not just ANY job, but the one he’s been waiting and working for. Not worried, but precious waiting. Getting closer to God, waiting. Leaning on Him, waiting. Working at my purpose, waiting. Not trusting in my own judgement, waiting.

I’m convinced of how God wants things to be, and I’m somewhat impatient for the persons in authority to come to see that. God’s grace prevails, though! His mercy and grace and everlasting love will triumph, and we just need to keep working and waiting for the time when His plans for us all come together.

I read somewhere today (probably one of my awesome facebook friends posted it) about how, as Christians, our focus is NOT self-preservation, but self-sacrifice, working toward God’s purpose for us. It’s such a hard thing to do, and SO goes against the world and what most people would have you believe.

Today, what will it be for you? Would you, COULD you stop preserving yourself? Could you do the difficult thing? What would happen if you waited on Him with expectancy? Just knowing God would do something amazing? It’s not easy, but this is SO going to be worth it. I  can’t wait to see how the Lord shows up and makes everything right again.

In the mean time, our broken hearts are mending.